Convince, Confuse, Concuss.... Unable to convince myself in the first place, let alone overcome what is needed. Knowing running away and seeking shelter from another is definitely not the solution but else than that, I dunno what to do. At least for now I'm quite clear about that.
Both are not what I'm looking for and what I'm looking at. It's kinda depress to hear from the horse's mouth that "i'm like this, I'm like that..." What if I say I wan it this way? The reply would probably be "too bad..."
This one whole week was quite a struggle within myself.... I dunno how to react, dunno how to act, dunno what to say. Disappointment is once again and again. How long is this going to continue unless I harden myself and turn down all. Shut myself once again from the hurt. I know I'm going take a freaking long time to be out in the open again.
Why men are often so selfish... wont you just change a little for the sake of your love one. I understand the saying "Accept for who I am..." but not even the slightest change? Then what's the point of me adhere to your lifestyle. That's not me either.
I LIVE THE WAY I WANT IT!
I'm pretty sure my final decision is gonna hurt not one, not two but 3 person in total... cos you are not the way I wan it unless you can convince me that why I should accept for the way you are...
No surprise, no romance, no gentleness, no self-auto ARE EQUAL to please get out of my life. I cant live w/o that to be honest.
TREAT ME LIKE A LADY AND NOT A NECESSITY!!!
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