Thots of the day

As the night settles... I'm here by myself, some questions came to my mind. What can I promise him? What can I give him? Will the end result be favorable to both of us? The results we both wanted. I do not have the answer now.

What is so captivating about this person I'm toking abt. Yes, his gentleness melt me. He never admit directly nor told me straight in my face that he likes/love me, but being "force" to write so over messages. Comfortable is the word he used. But that's not an affirmation. Everyone ard me are so comfortable with me. Does that means they all love me? Yes... Love me as a buddy, a good friend. Does that apply to him also?

I need a heavy duty commited person. Is he the one? I do not know. I'm still analysing, searching for the answer. Or I shld put it this way... I'm still searching for that prince to "save" this princess...

The person I'm looking for may never exists... I do not want to be a selfish ass by having him with me yet I can't promise anything at all. The thot of "losing" him makes me feel heartache. As long he is happy, I'm happy.

"One day if you decide to leave or a nice gal came along, please tell me and dun MIA out of the blue. I will understand. Just dun leave without a word..."